his life really was never really all that important, at least that was his perception. all the value that he saw in himself, and the value that he perceived others found in him, seemed always sourced from those that surrounded him. it was never explicitly him. even in groups formed by his friends, he found himself completely isolated, as if the source of his value was also that which consumed every last once. when your source is also your leak, where can any progress be made? of course he could answer that question, since i am not him you will have to look for him yourself to find the answer. but one piece of advice i would like to give: don't look for too long.